REFLECTION #13:

Oh, um… deadlines. That’s a thing that exists. I think? What are they exactly? Hmm, according to Lila it’s a line that leads to the delicious Jade ready to murder you, so um, win win! Yep, next Wednesday. Honestly, I don’t think I can tell you that I could finish and polish everything up in enough time for the line of death, but I’ll definitely get started, or at least have a very rough version done by the final date. This is kinda a big project, too, so I think I still might come back to continue it even after the quarter sadly ends (*cue sad violin music-*) or perhaps next year for TSA. If I think about it that way, I feel like there’s… a bit less pressure, if you know what I mean. So I guess for me, I’m still pretty nervous for the deadline, as I honestly still don’t have the clearest idea of what I’m doing, but deciding to make it a longer term project makes the situation feel a bit more reasonable in my mind. I just… feel bad for not having something so impressive during the presentations, as I know everyone else are doing the most amazing things within the time limit. Nonetheless, deadlines are indeed death inducing, so everyone’s probably extremely hyped and ready to be 100% productive during class. Wait, did I say death inducing? Um, ignore that please I said stress inducing-
If I can spill some highly honest tea, though, I feel kinda bad for having not exactly started to put my thoughts to paper or actually outline things during this long weekend (yep, sorry, working on this reflection at 2am on a Monday right now), but I do have some ideas. It’s not a good thing, and I should most definitely improve upon it, but I feel like sometimes if I get stuck on something, I have a tendency to put it away or procrastinate on it for the time being until I absolutely have to get back to it. I’m sorry that I’m such a mess this year, but woot I can figure it out! (Also, are you proud? I finally finished a reflection that’s hopefully on time!)